No time to live / With all the _ and _
So sick of it all. Of washing the withered flesh curtains / brushing the rotten mouths / clipping the matted wings - to fit the system. Tired, of pulling myself together - every morning anew - and yet slowly slipping deeper and deeper / into _(VOID?) That's not even the proper term to describe my current (mood), as I assume VOID would not feel so unbearable. In fact, void would be salvation compared to this mire of _(lets call it "pressured insignificance"). Every attempt to find a solution to cope with this paralyzing "antimatter" seems futile. A bottomless pit. I can't take anymore..
All I ask for is a little time to live! To breathe! ROOM to simply be! In peace and... do NOTHING.
So sick of it all. Of washing the withered flesh curtains / brushing the rotten mouths / clipping the matted wings - to fit the system. Tired, of pulling myself together - every morning anew - and yet slowly slipping deeper and deeper / into _(VOID?) That's not even the proper term to describe my current (mood), as I assume VOID would not feel so unbearable. In fact, void would be salvation compared to this mire of _(lets call it "pressured insignificance"). Every attempt to find a solution to cope with this paralyzing "antimatter" seems futile. A bottomless pit. I can't take anymore..
All I ask for is a little time to live! To breathe! ROOM to simply be! In peace and... do NOTHING.
Not having to be constantly on alert to do something useful because everything has become so incredibly efficient. I mean...how is it even possible that there's no time to left to ...breathe? Isn't that what every single individual on this planet should be entitled to? To just BE like a blade of grass
Once not to worry about injustice, violence, poverty... in general or in my case bleeding on paper to "make a living" and yet - not feeling that I am alive.
Once not to worry about injustice, violence, poverty... in general or in my case bleeding on paper to "make a living" and yet - not feeling that I am alive.
...Why can this "crazy havoc" we live in, not be stopped? Respiratory arrest for everyone! Freeze frame!
Anyhow...I gotta go. ..find a place where I can just be....Take what little courage I got left...get rid of what has been...And go away / Find a new destination....but first things first: Running 2hrs late to get sth to eat.
Note to self: need to find a _ place where living and meals are provided so me and A(K)I can just exist_
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