I don’t care anymore! Or ...at least I try not to.
I try not to care whether anyone will ever read this text or look at my work or it’ll be hidden, almost buried alive in the realms of the internet and (probably) never ever been seen again. I don’t care!
Damn it!!! Who am I kidding?
I care! I care a great deal. Because... I want to be loved, I suppose.
Sure, masturbation can serve as an interim solution for a while but its a dead end in the long term. I want to be loved..or at least liked...get your attention. It's pathetic. But it's the truth.
And so I keep telling myself: One day it’ll catch someones attention.
Even if its unlikely to happen that my legacy will get discovered during my lifetime…there needs to be at least hope for me that somebody, ONE single person CARES about this. ONE DAY.
Could be you. Now. So, why not pretend it is you. Right here, right now. You accidentally stumbled across this page...How on earth I don’t know..but you did. So, Welcome!…you wanna know WHAT this is about..What I do…
You wanna be entertained, make it worth your while that you’re here …let me think quickly…
ummmm.... I don't wanna hold you up..a piece..a meaningful piece...a funny one...You hesitate. You got no time. How much time do you have? This is boring. You are on the verge to leave...
STOP! Wait...
What do you do? Do you happen to be an archaeologist by any chance?
That would come in handy, as a witty archaeologist or someone with an exceptional sense for the extraordinary of the seemingly ordinary…would be the ideal candidate for me...for THIS
I need a specialist in his field really, treating this very find like…well, nothing less than the discovery of the 21st century.
A gemstone...a jewel..not just any jewel but let's say the "pink star"...
But if not…
I ll have to do continue anyway.
I have no choice. I’ll continue to jot down the excrements of my life and create images of everything and nothing, whether I have an audience or not - just as I am doomed to live my life.
(To be continued...)
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